ok so this first part of my week has had me in worry mode. i know the bible says to be anxious for nothing but by prayer and supplication make my request know with a thankful heart. oh i try but my flesh gets the better of me. so my car for example all weekend i fretted about it getting fixed. did it get fixed? yes and did i have to lose sleep over it? a big no. i wish my caps were working on this key board.
other things that really make me worry are, what people think about me. i know i need to give that up because who cares right? well easier said then done sometimes. i am such a perfectionist and when i feel i am not doing the best i can i get defensive, and yep ya guessed it i worry. and then that really gets me into trouble. i need to rest in my god and know that he knows every detail about me, what i am good at and what i am not. i get so jealuos sometimes i think” why can`t i do that like that or…” so on and so forth. i hate messing up. i just do. but i am human and it would be a different story if i just did not care about what or how i do things but i do so i need to learn that i can not please everyone and as long as i give it my best effort that is all that is required of me god will take care of the rest.
worry makes that body, soul and mind sick and i want to be free from this. it will all work out for my good and god`s glory. amen.